My Life

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And the life still goes on and forever till eternity.

There’s nothing that makes it stop or deviate from its normal course;

Nothing that disrupts its flow, nor does anything slow down its pace.

Time runs out everytime I wish I had some for myself,

And expressions fade out in the vast multitude of gestures that intend to convey the feelings.

The real feelings are never interpreted or are always misinterpreted.

The perturbed emotions represent  themselves in the weirdest ways .

The mental agitation defeats the very existence of intellect.

All efforts to return to sanity only add to the misery.

Time slips as I try to grab into my hands,leading myself to vanity;

Time gone by comes back and passes,trapped into a whirl I find myself again.

Cognizance all lost and memories so oblivious.

Good old times but return to haunt and make me sick.

The turbulence just can’t get worse,time stands still,

And the life still goes on…..

Make your own boundaries

Is it necessary to draw your own boundaries? - The answer is-Yes!

Sometimes you encounter a person you wish to avoid due to a history or some past experience. Everyone has a personal space and it’s one’s own choice how much to allow others into that space. We don’t live in a perfect world. So it’s perfectly “OK” to avoid someone.

The important thing is that you know how much you can tolerate and what is your threshold limit and accordingly draw your own boundaries. If you really want to stay happy –

•         No need to tolerate others if you do not want.
•         Do let them know about your personal boundaries.
•         Be clear and be blunt in your communication with them.
•         Ask them to respect your space.

This formula is applicable to every relationship and more you are ambitious, more is the need to draw a line.

I was talking with one of my friends and she told me how much she was disturbed with frequently asked questions after marriage, coming from people who she didn’t want to talk and wanted to avoid, about having a baby. Initially, she did tolerate them and was very much disturbed but now she is able to avoid these people. She is bold and blunt just enough and has created her own boundary for these people. The matter of family planning is her and her husband’s decision and it’s their personal matter, so she has full right to avoid answering others in that matter.

Sometimes we all should take our stand, should delineate boundaries and draw lines if we want to stay happy in our life and don’t want people to intrude into our personal space.

NEVER SLEEP IN THE NIGHT

When the dawn breaks into the day
And the Sun starts shining bright;
The divine rays dispel the darkness,
And spread over the chaste light;
The world wakes up from a long slumber,
Leaving behind the dark night;
The masses make hay, and
Get involved with their schedules tight.
Amidst all the changeover indifferent I stay,
There's nothing new-To myself I say;
Not because awake I had been the whole night that I can't see the light of the day;
But it seems there has been no night, no darkness on my way;
On voyage, I had been for time so long,
And for even more, I still may.
When the day ends taking away the light,
The darkness leads and follows the night.
Amidst the alternation indifferent I stay,
There's nothing new-To myself I say;
I take on the night and continue,
till the world sees the first sunray.
Once again the dawn breaks into the day,
And the sun starts shining bright;
I never stop for a respite,
Rather I continue my flight;
And until accomplished, I never sleep in the night, never sleep in the night.

Lost

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Life lost in the midst of vanity now feels like heaven,

No ambitions left:no desires fulfilled,no wishes granted though.

Perseverance will pave the way to a safe haven.

Hopes dying out and beliefs pretty lame, life struggles to come to flow.
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Ten- Minute Creativity Challenge

Whenever we encounter a new type of challenge, it almost always gives us a chance to develop a new set of skills. For me, it is very important to challenge myself to keep myself motivated. So I took a Ten-minute creativity challenge to nurture my creativity. I took random topics and tried to create something creative in Ten minutes. I was especially focusing on nurturing my sketching skills.

 Here are a few topics that I randomly selected and sketched:- 

 1.Something which I dislike:-

Capsicum: - From the Greek word- “Kapto” which means “to gulp” Although I dislike Capsicum because I don’t like its taste, but I like stuffed capsicum, I do end up gulping it.

2.My Favorite animated Character:-

Pluto: - I like Disney’s beloved canine Pluto. The naïve yet cute dog speaks a lot with his expression and famous for his powerful sense of smell. He acts as Mickey’s sidekick.

According to Mickey, Pluto can find anything and anybody with his nose.

The only thing ever said by Pluto is ‘Kiss me’.

“Bone Trouble” is an animated short of the Pluto in which Disney receives an Academy Award for Best Cartoon.

3.Something that is in my room: - 

Wax Crayons: -There are a lot of things that make me nostalgic and wax crayons are one of them. I like to collect these small things as it reminds me of my childhood memories.

~If you carry your childhood with you, you never become old~

                                                           -Tom Stoppard-

4.Something Purple:- 

A Brinjal/ An eggplant: - I like crispy shallow fried eggplant and stuffed one as well. 

Do you know eggplants aren’t really vegetables, they’re berries. Which isn’t that strange, considering other fruits are commonly mistaken for vegetables- like tomatoes.

One of the fact about this fruit is -The eggplant is believed to have originated in India, where it is considered to be the King of Vegetables.

(I wonder who the Queen is?)

That’s all for now folks.Hope you enjoyed the post, will post again soon.

तेरी याद

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फिर तेरी याद आई जब

तो आईने में देख लिया चेहरा तेरा

मगर चिलमन ये वक़्त का जो ठहरा

चुरा ले गया तेरा रूप सुनहरा |

फासले ये घट जाएँ, चिलमन ये सिमट जाए

तनहाई के ये पल बस पल में कट जाएँ

नज़र में बसा लूं नूर तेरा की ये दुनिया मेरी रोशन हो जाए

मिट जाए सारे गम कि सब जीवन में बस तू ही तू छा जाए || 
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Little Confusions

Some memories are beautiful and really make you feel nostalgic, especially if it is a childhood memory. Today, I want to share one incident from my childhood which brought a sweet smile on my face today as it flashed in my mind as a random memory for what reason, I know not!

As a child, I was very competitive in all the things I did whether it was studies or any other co-curricular activity. I always wanted to be in the first place but now things have changed a lot, and so has my philosophy. With my experience through these many years, I have learned that being competitive somehow makes you comparative, and you start comparing yourself with others not to better yourself but to get better than someone else. I believe, we must follow our passion and give our best and compete with no one but our own self.

Apologies for this digression, coming back to my story- It was the last day of my first grade & results were soon going to be out.

I was headed towards the School with my Dad. I was immersed into my own world of calculations, wondering what percentage of marks I would get. Will I secure or lose my first position this time? Then I thought –maybe I should pray to God, but what good a prayer would do at this time? I was confused.

I decided to start a chat with my Dad, hoping it would help ease off the anxiety, and the conversation was like this:

Me: What are your expectations from me for today?

Dad: I wish you pass with flying colors.

Me: I just wanted to know one thing.

Dad: What?

Me: When will make you more satisfied - if I get more than 95% overall marks but fail in one subject or If I get just 33% marks and pass in all the subjects. (I knew from the previous night’s conversation with my elder brother that 33% was the minimum passing marks percentage, and he would have been more satisfied with mere 33% rather than failing in one subject.)

Dad: That is such a huge difference. What is your expectation?

Me: I think I would be close to 90% but I’m afraid as I had not performed very well in Mathematics (I had always dreaded Mathematics as a subject).

Dad: Now, I am confused. Let's wait and see what your result is, because there is no point in getting 90% and failing in one subject.

This made me even more perplexed, as this conversation which I started did not solve the purpose.

That was the whole conversation and the good news was that I got 95% (I am not sure about the exact percentage, which I can check out looking at my report card but I am too lazy to do) and retained my first position.

My Dad was very happy but for me the confusion was still on as to what would be more satisfying -   a Pass in all the subjects or a fail with overall good percentage of marks.

Anyways, the day ended well with an end to all my anxiety and my favorite food at home, as a celebration of my achievements.